CHOICE

CHOICE

 

Yes Sir Director Producer Grant Officer Manager Agent and Tax Payer 

you are right 

I did choose to be an artist 

Well more accurately I choose to make dance works 

Yes I do  I did and you are right Sir Director Producer Grant officer Manager Agent and Tax Payer No one forced me to do it

I do not have a gun pointing at my head

 

Granted I was encouraged

I enrolled in 

I took opportunities 

I conjured experience from my imagination 

I developed a practice

I disseminated that god dam practice

I still to this day go on integrating conceptual and material thinking 

In the name of making dance work  

I do

 

So yes Sir Director Producer Grant Officer Manager Agent and Tax Payer you are right to roll you eyes at me. 

I did choose to be an artist

Correct

 

But if I may say one thing in my defence 

I DID NOT choose the conditions the rules the game the climate

These conditions have been forced upon me, against my will,  my better judgement,  my experience and my worth

I did not choose to be bamboozled by your bureaucratism or to be weakened by the disparity and nonsense of it all

I did not and I do not choose this ineffective unfair outdated reoccurring exasperating system but here’s the gut busting thing the ridiculousness of it all ( Pause) 

I don’t have a choice ( said loudly)

 

There is no other choice, you didn’t give me those other options when I signed up in 2002 and you  continually refuse to empower me to make other choices possible

 

But yes Sir Director Producer Grant Officer Manager Agent and Tax Payer the bottom line remains that I choose to be a dance artist 

 

And you choose to fucking kill it